Surf the net for a while juz now....read a few of the blogs....man...i feel so sad for u(i think u know who i meant)....I feel for u....but hey that's life...matters of the heart is very complicated....But never mind....u still got me...I'm always open to hear any problems....but then it also make me wonder.....i can hear people problems...but who will hear mine....sometimes i just cry alone in the middle of the nite....wondering and pondering what to do.....what to be....and how to stay happy....I always appear to be the happy one....but i'm so so not.....I have so many problems that i don't dare to tell people....I can't....I CAN'T....but why.....i don't know why....why am i always listening....why do i keep doing that when i myself are suffering....simple....coz i love my friends....and i love making my friends happy....But i fear the feeling in not mutual....it's not because of u guys...it's me...i just can't open up....sometimes i just feel that i should take the last plunge.....but i fear....i fear....fear of the grievance i might bring to people....and the torture of death....But it's so unbearable....sometimes it just came to a point where i don't know what's my problems and i'm worrying about....but i just know that the pain is there....there's more to me that meets the eye....people don't know that....My closest friend might know that i'm very sensitive and semtimental but they still don't know the whole truth about me b'coz i fear to tell them......Maybe i find peace in listening to people's problem......Peace to know that others too have problem....yeah i think that's it.....So my friend....tell me your problems.....esp to that friend of mine....don't be shy with me.....I feel you....i feel your sorrow...but don't let this experience taunts you in ur love life ...there'll be other who will understand u......
Hanim