Hey peeps....i'm having the same jitters i always have again......i don't feel like going to school.....it's always like this after a long school break....it's becoming worse as i get older....maybe my mind and body are tired of school,tired of being committed to an institution.....a system.....and maybe because my peeps aren't in school anymore.....don't get me wrong...i like my new peeps.....but it just feel different you know....i thought me and diana could graduate together.....again.....and i thought i could graduate with my 02S03 peeps....they are in fact the peeps i first associates with when i join pjc....and now that dream is shattered....feel so different without them around.....i miss my boos,shima,hidayat,diana,hanisah and nurul ....miss bitching with them....SO WEIRD....Canteen never felt so different...i practically stay stuck with the peeps from S05....usually i'll be gone sitting with my boos.....miss my peeps so much!!!but hey i wish them best of luck with their new life,future A-level results and their future endeavours....thank you for being part of my life.....you guys left a huge mark in my life.....the teachers we get for this year kinda sucks....we practically have different teachers xcept for ms ng and mr loke...i think this is very stupid.....new teachers means we have to adjust to new teaching methods....probably their styles are different to our previous teachers....however our new teachers are way much experienced than the previous one....but i do kinda miss them...well most of them...coz they are younger and kinda much hippier than these guys....never mind i just hope year 2004 will be soon past....i wanna get this year done and over with....get pjc off my system and mind.....get my a-level done properly....find a temporary job and sayonar to pjc.....fill you in something....life in pjc sucks for me....well it's true that i met great friends....but apart from that...it had gave me nothing but stress and misery.....seriously....never had the same feeling for fajar and xingnan.....i had never felt so strongly about leaving a school soon.....it's really kinda stupid for me to wish year 2004 to end soon since it's only the 1st week of jan but please i beg of you mother nature.....make it november soon....i can't stand being in pjc anymore....please!!!!!!
I woke up
To my dismay
It's time for school
I stand up
Reluctantly
To get ready for school
Why do i have to?
I asked myself
Coz you have to
For your family
For your mom
A voice answers back
Sometimes i wonder
Is it worth it
Slogging hard in school
But i know it will
At the end of the day
With the cert in my hands
I know it's worth it
But b'coz of school(pjc)
I lost my chirpy soul
I lost my happy self
For now
One motivation that kept me moving
Is that it's all going to end soon
Soon enough...................
Hanim