What someone told me yesterday sure made me thinking again...Damn thoughts...It's like everything's coming back...Talking about dejavu...

I'm sure hating myself now...for what I am and what I have become...physically...mentally..Physically...pimple is like coming out everywhere...my skins getting dry...I sure have put on more weight but like it make any difference...Just have another drama of leg cramp...damn cramp....Mentally...I think I'm mental...I just don't know who I am anymore...Is this what they call on the quest to find your true identity..if that's what I'm facing so yah be it..I'm on a journey to find my true self...I like so schizo...But not to the extremity...don't worry people of the public...I'm not to the extent of being the nice sweet girl one moment and the cursing bitch the next moment...or am I...Hmm..Nope I'm sure I'm not...am am I...again...

Going to have doctor appointment soon...so from where I see it...It's like confirm I'm going to be off the insulin regime...No more needles poking thru my skin..no more wrong needles mark on my stomach...like it make a difference...with all that stretchmarks...But the new medicine regime I am taking now is really making me hypoglycaemic all the time...Yesterday itself I was down to 3.1...But with this added weight I think I have to put on...haha...think....the doctor would probably add more medicine to what it is already now...Oh man...I'm already popping 6.5 pills daily..Screw diabetes

Let me get inside your head
Let me show you I'm prepared
Let me stick my needles in
And let me hurt you again
Fuck you for killing me!

~Needles~

Hanim