So today is the last day of the year 2004.All I can say about 2004 is ,it's a year I wish I can forget.I wanna let go of 2004 and welcome 2005.
2004....
Well one thing,it's a year where I cried the most.I faced my most taxing moments this year.I had plenty of unhappiness,stress,disappointment...I just can't put in the words the emotions I felt this year.Thinking back,it really bring me back to tears.
I had a lot of mood swings,crazy emotional roller coaster rides,the ups and downs.It was really crazy.The A's,oh boy,the A's.Self-explanatory there.
It was a challenge,really a challenge.Be it at school,home...wherever.And I'm glad that the year is coming to an end.
To top it off...what way to end the year but with a Tsunami.My heart really weeps for all the people who died,lost their loved ones,lost their properties.It was really a tragedy.
But I can't deny the good things 2004 brings....
I remembered how I would turned to a few friends and just cry.They were so wonderful.They gave me support,strength when I'm on the verge of giving up,breaking down and losing the will to everything.Can't do without them.
I'm blessed.
Erna...I love you gal...You are the one soul that knows everything happening in my life.You were there to listen to my ramble..You were there when I really need to cry....You were there comforting me...You were there lending me your ears...You kept my darkest secrets...You were there.And I thank you so so much.
Dee....I love you too babe...you were there giving me the strength to go on with the darned A's. As much you might have hated the A's...You pushed me on...you cheered me on...You told me never to give up...Although I hated the A's too but your support is really heaven's sent.And I too thank you for that.
Isnan..thanks for being there,whenever I need a friend...thanks for the support & encouragement.You've been a great friend,truly blessed to know you.Thank you for the fun times... i.e the lame jokes,the I-am-this-that-whatever-not,the coughs *ahem ahem*...Gonna miss you.Love ya too and Thank You.
Hid...girl...thank you so much...You too had to take some crying crap from me.Sorry I made you alarmed a few times.Love crapping with you on the net.Thank God for MSN.You've been a wonderful minah jiwang sis.Haha :P.Gonna miss you too.Hope things will look brighter for you in every way in the new year ahead.Love ya.
Za,Nina,Inn & Jo....thank you all for the laughter.The funny antics.The crappings.Thank you all for everything.Really.Keep in touch...Gonna miss you all so much.Love you lots gals.
Liza & Jee,the other 2 of the 4 Dara team :P...always have a blast when I'm out with you gals.Thank you for the memorable 19th Birthday.You gals been so great..I love ya gals too.
I really thank god for all these people.There's many others but I can't possible name all of them here.Thank you all whoever you are...May God bless you guys with abundance happiness and whatever you people wished for in the year 2005.
And ok...I can't also deny some other things which...sometimes bring smiles to my face....
Feel in love with a few guys...You guys would probably know who it is/are.
Tom Welling
My Darling...yes this is the year I fell head over heels in love with him...a bit exxageration there...but yes...My darling.That smile...gorgeous!That bod...Hot!That eyes...Dreamy!
Taufik Batisah
The soul man...another darling.That Voice....cair cair cair...Must I write down the list again.Hee...
The nice,funny memories...really put smile on my face...especially all the Sentosa trip and the pool session we had as a class.The birthdays,the fireworks...Nice nice memories.
And there's also some touching moments.
And I won't lie,there will be things I'm gonna miss about 2004...
First...
School...Yes I am mad...I'm gonna miss school,the friends,the fun times we all had together.Not the torturing lectures and tutorials though.
Second...
don't laugh..i mean it,don't laugh.I'm gonna miss being a teenager...yes...as many of you out there know...I'm gonna hit 20(in June,23...remember that ;P)
Unfinished business...
If I have offended anyone..hurt anyone...or whatever I did without(or with) my awareness or notice..I'm truly deeply sorry...
New year resolution...
Forget...
I wanna leave it all behind and forget...
Wishes for the new year....
Of course to get good results for my A's and hopefully get into Uni.
Get a job..well at least get a temp job till I get back to school...Insya allah.
Lose weight...haha..people have been bugging me about that...
Find someone special....people have been bugging me about that too...I don't know why but people have been talking to me about marriages...I'm not ready yet but I'll try to find someone,ok?
Have a happy life....and have some happiness...
2004...thank you for everything.You had not been a total blast.But every part of you be it sad or sweet..
You helped me grow.
Thank you.
In a few minutes,you'll be leaving and what you'll left behind gonna be a legacy,a chapter closed in my life.
Goodbye 2004.
Hello 2005.
The sweet memories I take with me from 2004....
Happy New Year Y'all
Hanim