I envy people who can write well.I enjoy reading what they write coz sometimes they can arrange the words so nicely that each words complement each other marvellously.Sometimes what they write makes you ponder, that sometimes it makes me happy to know that I'm intelligent enough to comprehend and think at the same time.Sometimes what they write struck a chord and it eases me that someone can descibe the same feeling I'm going through,only better with words.
The past couple of weeks,I've been going back to Tuas to help my mom at her stall.This includes a lonely trip on 180 then 254,before I reach the Pan United Shipyard.But I like the lonely trips on the buses.With a radio in my hand,I get to think,reflect,ponder or just let my imaginations run wild.Also I get to see and smell(unfortunately) the neighbourhood where I actually grew up.It may not be blocks of aparment or houses with white fences.Although there are fences,brab wires actually surrounding the perimeters of shipyards and chemical factories.Yes I grew up with the heavy metals, literally.While others play outside with dolls,I played with the industrial markers given to me either by the marine engineers or the contractors who spent the whole day working on the blasted ships.So the trip there somehow reassured me why I chose not to be in this line of work.No marine engineering for me.One at home is enough.No working outside with dirt,oil stains and of course the sun on your head 24/7,though it's nice to be tan.I'm happy with the path I have chosen(provided I'm given the course in Uni).It might be too early to say,but for now yah....I'm happy.
I really hope I'll get into Uni.The satisfaction I get to see how people admired my mom for having a daughter who possibly might enter a Uni is so damn great.People might dissed my mum before,saying that she probably have a dumb daughter like her as well.But hah looks who's talking now.Please God,I'll be good...just let me enter Uni.
Watching Outback Jack sometimes show me the true nature of guys.And sometimes it hit me hard.But I'm glad he chose Natalie in the end.
Hanim