I watched Loser yesterday night..what a sweet movie..The guy is just so sweet...sensitive...smart...sweet..it's amazing how a haircut can transformed a guy from a geek to a not-so-bad-kinda guy

Watching the movie make me think..I'm not trying to be an ingrate or a bitch or whatever...But I do sometimes wonder what and who am I to people...Am I a friend...a best friend...Am I someone you can truly go to for problems or am I someone you would lend your shoulders to cry on or lend an ear when I need one...Am I that friend you would trust your life with and you for me to trust mine with...Am I the friend you would be proud of whatever I may do...OR Am I just the friend you can use as your asswipe and throw away when it's dirty...Am I the gullible one that would follow whatever you say...Am I the stupid one that is just your caddie..Am i the one that you can just hurt and leave bleeding...Am I just a soup to your soul,knowing that there's one pathetic soul that's lower than you in the food chain....

Whatever it is...I hope it's not the bottom few and if it is...i don't want to know...It might sound lame but I really don't want to know like how Mario doesn't want to know...Something are just meant not to be told I guess....

so long and goodnight
so long not goodnight
~Helena,My Chemical Romance~

Hanim