It feels so empty....

I'm not sure whether it's the house or it's just how I feel....

I'm trying to pre-occupy myself with stuff to do so that I won't just stare into space and think so much....Staying at home seems torturous coz there's just nothing to do and of course...due to the obvious reasons too...

So I got myself a second job...It won't be a second job for too long coz I'm letting relief teaching go....you'll get my drift....It's a teaching job at a tuition centre...As of Tuesday 5th July....I'll be teaching math problem solving to 4 Pri 6 kids....Not bad I get $18 an hour,once a week,1.5 hour...Hey who knows if my (soon) timetable permits...I might get myself more classes....It's about time I start fending for myself...

All this talk about work and timetable and fending for myself makes me think...Damn I should have accepted the teaching degree course..But when I step into Fajar..i would think back and say Damn it feels good not to accept the teaching course...Like,yes I do can teach,I like talking to the kids and be around them...but I hate the feeling of authority to the kids...I want to be their friends...their big sister you know...But when I have to shout at them and tell them to do this and that...It sucks...I used to hate when the teachers do that in school and now I wanna be like that...Hmm..forget it...Neway I already had another plan and goodie for me...my uncle was just thinking the same plan..I was quite amazed he voiced it out before I told him what I wanna do in the future...He even thought it thru how I'm gonna achieved it....So I really hope it'll come true...2015,that's the aim...

I do wish Singapore is like US...I mean I've just watched this mtv about 4 high sch seniors embarking onto college life...Damn it's so cool to be able to choose from 10000 universities,choose your rooms...move out..be more independent...But no we have to have only 3 universities and the hostel...it's pathetic...like what the heck...my house is just a 30minutes bus ride away...where's the excitement in that?...No wonder I'm not that freaking excited to embark to Uni and awed at how these US kids look forward to the college life...who would not...away from family...no curfews...parties...Damn I would be glad to switch place...

School starting soon and lotsa orientation stuff happening...Mostly they're camps...As someone who is always trying to escape and opting out from orientation and camps...I've decided not to go for any...But I might be going for the Union ball though...provided there's people to go with la...but that's like 2 months away...What more can I say....school is starting soon...can't you the grin on my face?(yea rite)


Hope you are here to see me thru Uni...I miss you...

Hanim