As much I as admired the lights,the sounds,the spontaneity,the excitement,the liveness,I've come to terms that I'm not "fit" to be in the theatre.
It's not that I'm not doing well in the class(I hope I am and will do well).It's just that I'm more of a TV person myself.I love serials.I love the predictability(not excessive though) of some shows.I love the familiarity of the characters.I love the elaborate environment,the naturalistic acting,no hidden agenda,no hidden meaning.
I don't want my audience to be of the niche population,I don't need them to acquire any theatre knowledge.I want them to see my work and understand it as it is.I don't need them to decode anything-just watch and comprehend.They don't have to understand the intradialogic reference nor must they decode the mise-en-scene.They don't have to have a high level of erwartungshorizont.Nor must they endure defamiliarisation.What's wrong with familiarity?
Sometimes I wish they would stop this hoopla about theatre being artistic or abstraction or whatever.Yes,it should be artistic,creative,thought provoking but must it always be that way.There are others way you know.Acting should be an art in itself.The human expression is enough to say a thousand words.The body language is beautiful as it is.
I'm not avant garde nor am I Brecht or Ibsen.I love the theatre but I reckon I would be deem as uncreative and very conventional.So I'm not radical,sue me.
Why must I take theatre the same year as those people who think they're the theatre buff and makes my experience very bad?Why?
I don't wish my love for theatre to falter thus I shall just continue to be an audience.
But I must say this experience in theatre has make me realised even more my love for malay theatre.Because you don't expect the malay theatre to be so Brecht-ian or avant garde.Yes they do have avant garde practices but not so extreme, which makes it why malay theatre so enjoyable.Who knows one day I might pluck up some courage to join some malay theatre group.Who knows...
Hanim