When I was younger,I used to think cool guys are those bad boys character who smokes,act tough yada yada.I was fooled by the media and peer pressure you see.But life experience and maturity has made me learn that a guy's toughness isn't in his bad boy attitude(in fact it's such a turn-off) but in his willingness to show his vulnerability.That's toughness.
As we all know,I think guys are typical,supeficial and ego-centric..*yada yada yada and life goes on*.But when some of them show me a side,the vulnerable side of them,I have nothing but admiration for willing to share with me their darkest moment.Just like a student today.Behind every act tough episode they had with me,sometimes they give up and show me the true "man" they are.And I love when that happens,I feel very honoured that they are willing to shed some light about their life to me,their very vulnerable position.And to be listening and giving advice,I have never felt proud coz sometimes they really look up to you as a sister,a mentor,someone they can trust.
Thank You for giving me that chance,though there may not be a next time(coz they can't be vulnerable all the time wat,ego-centric remember).My words may dissipate there and then but I hope some sort of resonance stays to give you an impact someway somehow.
However there are some who really irks me.Their nonchalance irate me like crazy.How can they be so ignorance, of their life and their future when their parents work so hard to give them what they have today.I don't understand you know.Belittling yourself and calling yourself a failure and,I quote,"I'll be dead in 20 years,kene hang for selling drug" is like throwing all your parents' effort down the drain.I don't care if it's their way of joking or getting back at me(for God knows why),but that's simply rude and ridiculous.I'm not laughing.I'm pisst.
Coz somewhere out there,people with hard life are yearning for the same opportunity they have now.
In fact,I'm pisst with a lot of things.I don't care who you are.But I'm really pisst.Yes I'm pisst at you.
Hanim