Like I said,I've been getting these thoughts about death.It got pretty intense that I just had to pour it out to someone.But this attempt certainly startled me.Someone told me that (it's normal but)I'm rather pre-occupied with worldly thoughts/possession.I know that's true about me.But to hear from someone else...really shut me up for a moment.It makes me look at and ponder who I am now.

I'm not saying I'm a evil person(nor am I saying I'm good either). Just that it makes me look at my priority in life.Look at how much I've really grown and how much I have not.And it makes me go back to those time when I was younger.The last couple of days have been hard.I don't know where it all comes from but it really had some pretty great effects on me.

The thoughts are slowly passing away.It's been an experience.

I had intended to write more.But I couldn't.Type a few times just to erase it all out again. My brain is complex.So much I want to tell.But I'm always restricted.

My mind's really a mess now.

Hanim