I think I have a problem of being too nice(although I am quite bitchy =D).Coz when I do get mad, people don't take it seriously and don't get the severity of it. As a friend told me before, "you're nice, you don't hold grudges and you forgave easily". I don't know if it's true though. I do hold grudges and I don't neccessarily forgave easily. I don't show it but I do.Coz when I do(eventually)forgive, I won't forget. I just can't...it's this mechanism I build to save myself. But I do admit I am quite soft. I can't go mad for a very long time but when if I do, you know it's bad and maybe beyond repairable...I know coz it's been 6months and counting if some of you know what's been going on.

Point is, I want to be taken seriously. Not this girl who people think it's just gonna blow over soon for her. If I mad, treat it like I'm fucking mad. Say sorry for goodness sake. Dee used to tell me I say sorry too much...well maybe it's about time people say sorry to me... Sorry is such a powerful word. I had one closure recently and the feeling was great and I'm glad we've left the past behind. Thanks.

Also, people have this perceptions that my formalities with them means it's all over. Please don't take my formalities as a sign of pleasure. Unless I say it's over....then it's never over.

And don't treat me like I need your pity. I don't need your pity and your sense of "obligations". I never need it.

I'm mad because some people are treating me like pussy. I'm not that girl they used to know. I'm no longer a kid.

Hanim