I was told that feeling blah, I quote "is not good what"...Haha well Isrin, I like feeling blah...coz it makes me feel free. Numb but free. Coz it's during this time that I get to re-evaluate everything and put them into new perspective.

But I'm good now, I hope. The progesterone something something pill hormonic effect has subside. It has now left me with the cramps and the usuals.

So no worries people, I'm good. Haha. I know there was a lot of offer of help these past few days. Sorry for being a bitch. And no worries. I feel good now. Still a bit blah( coz I like feeling blah remember) but good. Thanks babes.

Oh have I told you what made me feel good anyway. I had a few dreams for the past few days and it involves an unknown chinese guy, good ~~sex~~ life and a happy me. That did the trick.Haha.But I never got to wake up knowing how he looks like. All I know he's bald and I blame Wentworth Miller for that. Haha....Wait.. how can anyone blame Wentworth Miller for anything. I retract that statement.Anyway he was so sweet,a gentleman, sensitive, poetic,funny,romantic,free-spirited...it felt so good in the dreams that it almost hurt to wake up.I know it's just a dream and it's not real but it felt so right in so many ways. Haha Gosh I think I fell in love with the guy in my dream.Haha.How weird and stupid is that?Coz we all know such ~~men~~ person don't exist.As my soci lecturer always says "Am I right or am I right?"

Hanim