If there's one thing I'm regretting now, is not following through with what I have promised myself. Again I'm sick today. 3 weeks in a row. I'm wheezing like as asthmatic girl coz I can't breathe properly either through the nose nor my mouth because of this 2 things called mucus and toncilitis.Amazing. And because of being sick all the time, I let myself go. I think it's ok to rest on my big ass laurels just because I'm sick or tired...but the reprecussions now is that I'm behind(again) with my schoolworks and got even more sick. Just hope, I'll get back on the bandwagon soon.
V-day is coming and urghhh it's getting on my nerve because in NUS, they make a huge deal over it. I think they do it purposely since the past fellow graduates have pretty much screwed up the no. of childbirth in Singapore. So before we leave school, the university will use their every last attempts to make us realise how "important" it is to be in love and maybe just maybe after doing such, they managed to influence the student body to get married and have lots of children.Everywhere they're taking orders for roses which cost freaking 55bucks for 12 stalks and there's bigass LOVE or is it just V at the forum. Even the crusade for christ club taking this Valentine opportunity to spread their message of love. And it's irking the hell out of me.I'm a cynic. Although I do talk about love and men and sometimes gives out advice on love and relationship, I'm a cynic...bcoz love is subjective. Love is not just about the feeling that many people preach about. It depends on a lot of factor. How the other sex(or the same sex if you swing that way) look, behave, dress yada yada yada. If love is just about feeling, I must have been in love so many times and who knows so would people be with me. So until I find and believe in love, leave your Valentines celebration away from me. Coz I don't give a shit.
Oh before I go on, just let you know I took the pills again. So hatred,sadness and scepticism pretty much reigns in every inch of my body right now.
On a lighter note, I think I like watching Victoria Secrets. Coz I love their commercial on ch5. I love that song.Someone get me that song. Also coz they show beautiful women with beautiful curves...not those skinny ass models you know. I know I may sound lesbian but I think there's nothing wrong in a girl appreciating the beauty of other girls. I do it and I don't think I'm alone.
But what irks me is that the media tries to make it a men's show. Tell me,who will buy and wear the lingerie?Women. So why make it as if it's the free-wank-show for men.
Hanim