I love watching Runway Moms on Discovery Travel and living channel...

Today I watched this beautiful expecting model opted for a house birth.It was so weird. They made a personal video diary when she was in labour..and she was naked or half naked most of the time... she was so much in pain..it was scary...they had to make her go on fours on the sofa while the midwife wrap a sling around her belly and "shuffle" it side by side to ease her pain... In the end...when it's finally time for her to push...they had the fiancee sat on the toilet, she sat on her fiancee and then she pushed...She was screaming in pain and kept asking the midwife if she can push already.. Aiyoh...so seram and so weird...but it looks so romantic at the same time..the whole time...the whole night(coz she was in labour at 1am) and day the fiancee was there with her..hugging her,kissing her,comforting her..

For some reason..whenever I watch this show... I will always feel hormonal... I get teary-eyed...I get all these weird feelings...

I guess I do want a baby and be a mother....

Man...that's scary shit...to hear myself say that now... I give myself 5-7 more years though..haha...InsyaAllah

Hanim