I was quite happy when I saw that 86% in my assignment which I had slogged hard and cried for. Until... I found out that everyone are either in the same range or some even higher into the 90% range. And to think the past assignment, I only got a miser 68% la.That's like 20 points away from the rest of the class. The joy of being penalised for an assignment. I was so disheartened ok. Coz in NUS, there's such thing called bell curve and although I know it does not apply in small classes, I was still so fucking worried I am going to get a C. A freaking C for a class which I really like and did quite a lot for.
Then it was the fucking Jap paper. Another reason why I am going to get a C this sem. Fucker! We sent in 15 minutes late and it could easily mean 2 grades downgrade. So if it's a B, that would mean a drop to C+ IF it is a B grade paper. Fuck! I stayed awake the whole night yesterday because of some fuckers just to get a C.God, please don't make it such. Please by any divine intervention, butakan, biolkan kepala hotak tutor tu. I don't mind getting a C if it's my own work and I know I did a shitty job( but it still hurts though to see a C there, hell,it hurts just to even see a B la) But to get a bad grade because some people just don't understand the concept of time and courtesy, menyerap beb!
But the talk with Syahidah just now on msn makes me a tad happier. She said everyone got a A for Iza's class last sem. So that means there is no bell curve! So who knows what grade I will get? If it's an A, I swear I will be jumping for joy. But if it's at least a B+ I would just be as appreciative, insyaAllah.( you know human nature,jealousy gets to me sometimes when it comes to grades.LOL) But can I just ask and hope for an A though?The 5 points would seriously help. I did the math already. To stay for honours, I need to get 16 points if I don't S/U and 12.5 points if I am S/Uing universe. Talking about universe. Urghh..sepatah kata Aisyah, tawakal je la.
Ok tonight I shall give myself a break. I think I need it ,though I don't think I deserve it. Never mind la, it just mean tomorrow more hard work baby!
Maznah's paper(which I must must must aim for an A) and 3 exams to go before 6th May 7pm.Weeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!
This sem have been very taxing but as I said to myself earlier this year, I wanna end yr 3 with a bang and damn it I will do whatever it takes!
Hanim