For someone who don't understand how such relationship can work or happen in the first place, I just cried a river for a gay couple in Grey's Anatomy Season 4 episode 14.

I think it's because there was love and then there was death. Love and death should not be made into a show or movie or wat. The last kiss...It's just so so sad.

I tell you I cried for practically all the episode in season 4 ok.And I am hoping they will start with episode 15 already coz I can't wait. I can't wait how this season will end. With Derek and Meredith, Izzie and George.

Fiza asked, how can I get emotionally attached to these "fake people"? I don't know. Maybe because art imitates life. Maybe.

I so want episode 15 fast.

I was the me in my head
There is a moment when I thought I can't do this
I can't do this alone.
But I close my eyes
And imagining myself doing it
And I did
I blocked out the fear
And I did it.

Hanim