There's this email I had composed earlier this year that is still sitting in my inbox.It was done in a moment of pique and although that I am ok now, there it is still sitting in my inbox.Waiting.
I have to say this growing up and growing older thing, it makes you do stuff... Stuff years before, I would have scoffed and laughed at, coz its just so not me. Like how today I found myself talking to my aunt about marriage, wedding and the whole shebang about how I would need to find a wali from my father side and how tough it was going to be. My goodness. She talked to me as if I am going to get married very soon and I just played along... Or looking at a situation and seeing reasons in it, though maybe months before I saw it in a total different light.
This what happened every year. Every year as I get a year older, I see a change in myself. And this year, I see reasons in many things, reasons of which I might have previously ignored or couldnt be bothered with. And though it has been enlightening, it has been scary also. So next time, you get a year older, jsut sit down and reflect. Is there any change in you? I have and somehow I am hoping its all for the best, though how scary it might seem.
Hanim