There's a lot of words to explain how I am lately. Obliterated. Exasperated. Senseless.Cranky. Stressed. And I realised I have been doing the temple massaging thingy a lot. It's only the 2nd week of school and I realised I am really behind time already. Almost cried doing the "aim of ISM" section of the proposal. It's barely 200 words and I am already lost, imagine doing 5k by 12th November. I was just waiting and waiting for someone to log in and finally Fiza came in. So I just threw whatever rubbish I have to her and lucky for me, she's a quite a whiz at English and sociology.. so finally, settled that after 4 hours of wanting to cry. There's still the section of Proposed Study Outline. Sigh. Another 400 of gibberish coming my way soon.
I know I shouldn't complain coz this is what I chose to do, but its not easy... really. But I think it's just me though...coz you know I know how I am. Just not born to enjoy reading, what more academic reading. Plus when you have other things on the sideline to deal with. Cousin.N-levels. Grandfather.money. mother.leg.appointments.Just thinking about it and there I did it again, the temple massaging thing.
Oh my God, week 2 eh week 2...and I am already shit. And I realised that instead of trying to make things better, I will go on making it worst. But again, only myself to blame. Bad time management. Bad at dealing with stress. Just bad... bad bad Siti.
week 2 eh....
Hanim