There are times when I found myself laughing and smiling, be it outside with friends, on the msn or just chilling with the family, the realization comes in that I am afterall happy. It comes in small little packages in the form of people whom I love. Makes me kinda guilty sometimes for complaining too much for wanting more than I have. But as usual, I falter occasionally coz these realization doesn't come too often. It's sad though, coz when it comes, I feel truly blessed. I need more of these moments. It sure will make everything else feels better.
The mum has been stressed about closing the shop for a few days. I think once you are so used to earning your keeps everyday and having a certain a mount of cash in hand for 20 odd years, you become like that. She kept asking me to call the company if she could come and open up the business. Kinda funny when I see my mum in that state but kinda sad also, coz it just show me how hard she has been working and how much a day without working is a worrying thing for her, what more with raya coming and the expenditure that comes along with this festive season.On a bright side though, it gives us time to make kuih yesterday. Her kuih tart is the awesome-ness. Glad I told her to use the more expensive butter like how Grandma always do, coz the tart really crumbles and melts in your mouth. Can't say the same for her kuih makmur though, that's a disaster. =p My double chocolate chip cookies with almonds got a bit burnt though( I blame the oven for this, they can be unpredictable) but the kids seems to like it, so no complain there.
Updated: Being in the maritime industry himself, my uncle just said that the company might be closed for a month if they're lucky. Omg, pray that it isn't so. A month of no income, that's harsh.
Raya is no longer as exciting as it was when I was a kid. But with the people around whom God has blessed me with thus so far. I am glad it's coming. And I'll pray that I'll love every moment of it.
Coz I will.
Hanim